yesterday was a horrible day. cranky, moody, pissed off, tired & upset.

last night however was absolutely wonderful (((: hahaha. stars rocked my world. after listening to their songs on my ipod for years. from the day i first discovered them in a green little ipod on the green mat in my drama classroom. to listening to them live. it was :DDDDD hahaha. its moments like these that make me so happy to be alive and in london. than jap food after that which was so goood (:

they didn't sing calendar girl though ): which made me abit )): cos its my fav song. for what it all means to me. but maybe its a sign. a sign to stop letting you hurt me. a sign to stop letting you use me as backup. haha. i'm currently floating happily along in my own river. i'm good (:

How could you do it

I couldn't say

Years built on sand

June until may

Second to second

Lied even while you held my hand

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose

I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose

I'll write you a postcard

I'll send you the news

From a house down the road from real love..

Oceans won't freeze

So loosen your heart

Underestimated

Undefeated in this love

We will always be a light

If I am lost for a day; try to find me

But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me

All of the things that I thought were so easy

Just got harder and harder each day

December is darkest and June is the light

But this empty bedroom won't make anything right

While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home

Who waits up for me all through the night

Calendar girl who's in love with the world

Stay alive

Calendar Girl who's in love with the world

Stay alive

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do

And when I awoke I was sure it was true

I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky

And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die

But I can't live forever,I can't always be

One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea

The pages keep turning,

I'll mark off each day with a cross

And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world

Stay Alive

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world

Stay Alive

January, February, March, April, May I'm alive

June, July, August, September,October I'm alive

November, December, you all through the winter

I'm alive

I'm alive